{"id":282374,"date":"2026-02-05T08:31:12","date_gmt":"2026-02-05T08:31:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/?p=282374"},"modified":"2026-02-05T08:31:12","modified_gmt":"2026-02-05T08:31:12","slug":"6-subat-2023-sesimi-duyan-var-mi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/en\/6-subat-2023-sesimi-duyan-var-mi\/","title":{"rendered":"February 6, 2023: Can Anyone Hear My Voice?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>6 \u015eubat sabah\u0131yd\u0131.<br \/>\nSaat 04.17.<br \/>\nUyumuyordum. Nedense uyku tutmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u00e7imde, ad\u0131n\u0131 koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir huzursuzluk dola\u015f\u0131p duruyordu. Oysa biz s\u0131cak yataklar\u0131m\u0131zda sa\u011fa sola d\u00f6nerken, birilerinin yataklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u00fct\u00fcn bir \u015fehir \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<br \/>\nTelevizyonu a\u00e7t\u0131m. Alt bantta ayn\u0131 c\u00fcmle d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyordu:<br \/>\n<strong><em>\u201cPe\u015f pe\u015fe depremler\u2026 7,7 b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\u2026 10 ilde hissedildi.\u201d<\/em><\/strong><br \/>\n(Daha sonra Elaz\u0131\u011f eklenerek 11 oldu.)<br \/>\n\u201cOn il\u201d dendi\u011fi an, kalbimin \u00fczerine a\u011f\u0131r bir ta\u015f d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<br \/>\nBu, s\u0131radan bir felaket de\u011fildi. E\u015fimi panikle uyand\u0131rd\u0131m. On il\u2026 On ilin ayn\u0131 anda y\u0131k\u0131lmas\u0131, insan\u0131n akl\u0131n\u0131n alaca\u011f\u0131 bir \u015fey de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nSonra eve bir sessizlik indi.<br \/>\nO a\u011f\u0131r, insan\u0131n i\u00e7ini ezen, kelimeleri susturan sessizlik.<br \/>\nElime telefonu ald\u0131m. X\u2019i a\u00e7t\u0131m.<br \/>\nVe k\u0131yamet oradayd\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cSesimizi duyan var m\u0131?\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cL\u00fctfen yard\u0131m edin.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cAdres at\u0131yorum.\u201d<br \/>\nBirisi \u201ckuzenim\u201d diyordu.<br \/>\nBirisi \u201c\u00e7ocu\u011fum\u201d.<br \/>\nBirisi \u201cannem\u201d, birisi \u201cbabam\u201d, birisi \u201csevgilim\u201d, birisi \u201ce\u015fim\u201d.<br \/>\nEnkaz\u0131n alt\u0131nda tek bir ki\u015fi yoktu; herkesin bir sevdi\u011fi, binlerce ki\u015fi vard\u0131. Ve kimse onlara ula\u015fam\u0131yordu.<br \/>\nHatay, Malatya, Mara\u015f, Ad\u0131yaman\u2026<br \/>\nEnkaz alt\u0131ndan g\u00f6nderilen ses kay\u0131tlar\u0131, titreyen ellerle \u00e7ekilmi\u015f videolar, nefes almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan insanlar\u2026<br \/>\nBu bir haber ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nBu, canl\u0131 canl\u0131 ya\u015fanan bir k\u0131yametti.<br \/>\n\u0130lk g\u00fcn b\u00f6yle ge\u00e7ti.<br \/>\nSonra ikinci g\u00fcn, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn\u2026<br \/>\nG\u00fcnler birbirine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nG\u00fcnlerce her sabah uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131mda a\u011flad\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc birileri h\u00e2l\u00e2 enkaz alt\u0131ndayd\u0131.<br \/>\nYata\u011fa giderken a\u011flad\u0131m; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc birileri karanl\u0131kta, so\u011fukta bekliyordu.<br \/>\nSofraya otururken a\u011flad\u0131m.<br \/>\nAsl\u0131nda ya\u015famaktan utanm\u0131yordum sadece.<br \/>\nYa\u015f\u0131yor olmam\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yam\u0131yordum.<br \/>\nS\u0131cak, dumans\u0131z bir evde nefes almak\u2026<br \/>\nAyd\u0131nl\u0131kta uyanmak\u2026<br \/>\nMuslu\u011fu a\u00e7\u0131nca suyun akmas\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nBunlar\u0131n hepsi bo\u011faz\u0131ma d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmleniyordu. Y\u00fcre\u011fime a\u011f\u0131r geliyordu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu kadar \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda hayatta kalmak tuhaf, rahats\u0131z edici bir histi.<br \/>\nBu bir su\u00e7luluk de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nBu, insan\u0131n kendi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sorgulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o \u00e7\u0131plak anlardan biriydi.<br \/>\n<strong>\u201cBen buraday\u0131m\u201d<\/strong> demenin bile fazla geldi\u011fi bir an.<br \/>\nHep ayn\u0131 duyguya s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kald\u0131m: yard\u0131m edememenin \u00e7aresizli\u011fi.<br \/>\nGitsek engel mi oluruz?<br \/>\nYollar\u0131 m\u0131 kapat\u0131r\u0131z?<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0131plak ellerimizle enkaz kald\u0131racak g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz var m\u0131?<br \/>\n\u201c\u0130nsan seli olsak, yollara d\u00f6k\u00fclsek bir faydam\u0131z olur mu?\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<br \/>\nAma olmad\u0131.<br \/>\nOlamad\u0131k.<br \/>\nYetemedik.<br \/>\nHer gece yata\u011fa girerken utand\u0131m.<br \/>\nNas\u0131l uyunur b\u00f6yle bir g\u00fcnde?<br \/>\nBirileri h\u00e2l\u00e2 kurtar\u0131lmay\u0131 beklerken\u2026<br \/>\nBir annenin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor akl\u0131mdan:<br \/>\n<em><strong>\u201c\u00c7ocu\u011fumun sesini duyuyordum\u2026 Ama donarak \u00f6ld\u00fc.\u201d<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\nSo\u011fuktu.<br \/>\nK\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nHer \u015fey \u00fcst \u00fcste gelmi\u015fti.<br \/>\n\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bir \u00f6l\u00fcm sessizli\u011fi vard\u0131.<br \/>\nSanki g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc hepimize k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<br \/>\nYerk\u00fcre ise bizim yerimize utan\u0131yordu.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun sismik hareketlili\u011fi bizim \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fc.<br \/>\nAma biz, onunla nas\u0131l ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmek yerine, depremler i\u00e7in onu su\u00e7lamay\u0131 se\u00e7mi\u015ftik.<br \/>\nYerk\u00fcrenin \u00fczerinde sessizce y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm.<br \/>\nOnu incitmekten korkarak.<br \/>\nSokaklarda insanlar konu\u015fmuyordu.<br \/>\nHerkes birbirinden ka\u00e7\u0131yordu sanki.<br \/>\nAraftayd\u0131k.<br \/>\nNe hayattayd\u0131k ne \u00f6l\u00fc.<br \/>\nSonra Malatya\u2019dan k\u0131z karde\u015fim geldi.<br \/>\n\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn arabada, yemeksiz ve az suyla yol alm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Ama ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131na sevinemeden geldiler. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn de\u011fil, ya\u015faman\u0131n utanc\u0131 ve yas\u0131 vard\u0131.<br \/>\nEve girdi\u011finde konu\u015fam\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zleri donuktu.<br \/>\nBelki iyi gelir diye onu deniz kenar\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. Deniz oradayd\u0131 ama sesini duymad\u0131k. Dalgalar bile susmu\u015f gibiydi. A\u011flad\u0131k. A\u011flad\u0131k. Hep a\u011flad\u0131k. Sadece a\u011flad\u0131k.<br \/>\nO g\u00fcnlerde, tan\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zdan tan\u0131mad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zdan, sevdi\u011fimiz d\u00fcnya g\u00fczeli \u00f6\u011frencilerimizden \u00f6l\u00fcm haberleri geliyordu. Bizim pay\u0131m\u0131za d\u00fc\u015fense yaln\u0131zca h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011flamakt\u0131. \u015eimdi bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazarken bile, o g\u00fczel \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in yapabildi\u011fim tek \u015fey a\u011flamak\u2026 Ne b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ac\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nResimleri fak\u00fclte koridorlar\u0131na as\u0131l\u0131.<br \/>\nBakmaya k\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ama bakt\u0131k\u00e7a i\u00e7imizin yeniden ve yeniden kavruldu\u011fu, yas\u0131n ve ac\u0131n\u0131n sessiz hat\u0131rlat\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nKolektif yas tutmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendik. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu kay\u0131p hepimizindi ve bu kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ac\u0131, tek ba\u015f\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131nabilecek bir y\u00fck de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nHepimizin bir yerinden can\u0131 yan\u0131yordu.<br \/>\nBazen kendi kayb\u0131m\u0131zla, bazen bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesiyle; ama mutlaka bir yerimizden.<br \/>\nBenim pay\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fen ac\u0131ysa, enkaz alt\u0131nda kalan o\u011flumun bir arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n haberiydi. G\u00fcnlerce do\u011fru bilgi alamad\u0131k.<br \/>\n\u00d6nce \u201ckurtar\u0131ld\u0131\u201d dediler.<br \/>\nUzakta olman\u0131n \u00e7aresizli\u011fiyle sevindik.<br \/>\nSonra \u00f6l\u00fcm haberi geldi.<br \/>\nG\u00fcnlerce ona a\u011flad\u0131m.<br \/>\nTan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bebeklere, \u00e7ocuklara, gen\u00e7lere, annelere yas tuttum. A\u011flad\u0131m. Ama ac\u0131 dinmedi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc y\u0131k\u0131m ve \u00f6l\u00fcm \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc.<br \/>\nHer yiten hayat bir ihtimaldi.<br \/>\nBir gelecekti.<br \/>\nVe \u00fclkenin d\u00fcn\u00fc, bug\u00fcn\u00fc, gelece\u011fi\u2026<br \/>\nenkaz\u0131n alt\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nAnd we<br \/>\nBir battaniye g\u00f6ndererek vicdan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 rahatlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<br \/>\nSanki bir koliyle bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu \u0131s\u0131tabilecektik.<br \/>\nBelki bu da bencillikti.<br \/>\nAma \u00e7aresizlikti ayn\u0131 zamanda.<br \/>\nA\u011flad\u0131k.<br \/>\nK\u0131zd\u0131k, \u00f6fkelendik.<br \/>\nBirilerine, kendimize; bazen her \u015feye. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yetmiyordu. Ne ara\u00e7lar, ne zaman, ne de biz.<br \/>\nHilti diye bir arac\u0131n yoklu\u011funa bile k\u0131zd\u0131k, vin\u00e7lerin yetersizli\u011fine k\u0131zd\u0131k. Sonra siyaset\u00e7ilere k\u0131zd\u0131k. Yetki onlardayd\u0131 ama yetmedi. Onlar da d\u00f6n\u00fcp bize k\u0131zd\u0131. Biz onlara, onlar bize\u2026 \u00d6fke, \u00e7aresizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde dola\u015f\u0131p durdu.<br \/>\nGarip, yaral\u0131, \u00f6fkeli bir \u00fclkeye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck.<br \/>\nAc\u0131 her yerdeydi; ac\u0131 bizi hem birbirimize yakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 hem de yapayaln\u0131z b\u0131rakt\u0131. Bu \u00e7eli\u015fkili duygunun i\u00e7inde g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ti.<br \/>\nVe i\u00e7imde sessiz ama \u00e7ok derin bir \u00f6fke kald\u0131.<br \/>\nBelki haks\u0131z\u0131m.<br \/>\nBelki yasla uyu\u015fmu\u015f duygular\u0131m\u0131n bana oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir oyundu.<br \/>\nAma o g\u00fcnlerde b\u00f6yle hissettim:<br \/>\nDepremden sadece \u00fc\u00e7 ay sonra bir se\u00e7ime gidilece\u011fi bilgisi, kurulan her c\u00fcmleyi, \u00e7\u0131kan her ekran y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fka bir yerden duymama neden oldu. Sanki bu y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131n zaman\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sanki \u00f6l\u00fcmler, enkazlar, kaybolan hayatlar bir takvimin ortas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ve o takvimde ac\u0131ya yer yokmu\u015f gibiydi.<br \/>\n<strong>\u201cSe\u00e7im \u00e7ok yak\u0131n, \u015fimdi \u00f6lmek zaman\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d<\/strong> der gibiydiler.<br \/>\nYa da bana \u00f6yle gelmi\u015fti.<br \/>\nBilmiyorum.<br \/>\nBildi\u011fim tek \u015fey, ac\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn sars\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ruhumda hissetti\u011fimdi.<br \/>\nBir taraf panik i\u00e7indeydi; \u201c\u015fimdi bunun s\u0131ras\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131?\u201d der gibi k\u0131zg\u0131nd\u0131, yas tutana da \u00f6lene de.<br \/>\nDi\u011fer taraf ise bu b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inden bir f\u0131rsat dev\u015firmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor gibiydi.<br \/>\nKimse bunu a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a s\u00f6ylemedi elbette.<br \/>\nAma ac\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inden bakan biri olarak ben b\u00f6yle hissettim.<br \/>\nBirileri se\u00e7imi kaybetmekten korkarken, birileri bu y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131 bir iktidar m\u00fccadelesinin par\u00e7as\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc sanki.<br \/>\nEn \u00e7ok da bu incitti beni.<br \/>\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn, yas\u0131n, enkaz\u0131n yeniden bir siyasi hesapla\u015fman\u0131n malzemesi h\u00e2line gelmesi\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130\u015fte bunu affedemiyorum.<br \/>\n6 \u015eubat, benim ve \u00e7o\u011fumuz i\u00e7in sadece bir tarih de\u011fil.<br \/>\n\u00dclkenin i\u00e7inde h\u00e2l\u00e2 duran bir enkaz.<br \/>\nO g\u00fcnden sonra bu \u00fclkenin haritas\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fti.<br \/>\nOn bir il, birer \u015fehir olmaktan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131;<br \/>\nbirer h\u00fcz\u00fcn co\u011frafyas\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<br \/>\nBu y\u00fczden oradan ge\u00e7erken konu\u015farak de\u011fil, susarak y\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o topraklar ac\u0131n\u0131n, yas\u0131n, kayb\u0131n ve hat\u0131rlaman\u0131n co\u011frafyas\u0131d\u0131r.<br \/>\nO co\u011frafya art\u0131k s\u0131radan bir yer de\u011fildir. G\u00f6k, r\u00fczg\u00e2r, toprak ve sular, g\u00fcnlerce s\u00fcren binlerce \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, yani <strong>\u201cSesimi duyan var m\u0131?\u201d<\/strong> hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131r.<br \/>\nOn bir ilin yerle bir oldu\u011fu, binlerce insan\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yerde insan sadece y\u00fcr\u00fcmez; ac\u0131yla y\u00fcr\u00fcr, yasla y\u00fcr\u00fcr, haf\u0131zay\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yarak y\u00fcr\u00fcr.<br \/>\nBurada her ad\u0131m bir kayb\u0131n \u00fczerinden at\u0131l\u0131r; her sessizlik, yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f bir vedan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131r.<br \/>\nVe bu y\u0131k\u0131m, sadece binalar\u0131 de\u011fil; yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f a\u015fklar\u0131, tamamlanamayan hayalleri, bir daha ayn\u0131 masaya oturamayacak hayatlar\u0131 da ald\u0131.<br \/>\nAma b\u00fct\u00fcn bu y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131n ard\u0131ndan as\u0131l soru h\u00e2l\u00e2 ortada duruyor:<br \/>\nBu ac\u0131n\u0131n co\u011frafyas\u0131nda ger\u00e7ekten de\u011fi\u015febildik mi, yoksa her seferinde ayn\u0131 yerden yeniden mi \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fck?<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Birileri se\u00e7imi kaybetmekten korkarken, birileri bu y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131 bir iktidar m\u00fccadelesinin par\u00e7as\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc sanki. 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