Baz\u0131 c\u00fcmleler vard\u0131r; okundu\u011fu anda bitmez. \u0130\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015fersin. Yank\u0131lan\u0131r, \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131r, seni kendine geri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Aziz Nesin\u2019in Z\u00fcb\u00fck\u2019te b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o c\u00fcmle de b\u00f6yle bir u\u00e7urum gibidir:<\/p>\n
\u201cBiliyorum, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bir toplumumuz var. Nice u\u011fra\u015fsak, bu \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f toplum i\u00e7inde bizler sa\u011flam ki\u015filer olarak kalamay\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n
Bir an durursun. Nefesin daral\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu s\u00f6z, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fil, seni anlat\u0131r. Ellerini y\u0131kasan da ge\u00e7meyen bir kir gibi, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n lekesi sinmi\u015ftir \u00fczerine. Fark etsen de, etmesen de.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcr\u00fcme dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey, bir sabah ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6kmez \u00fczerimize. Sessizdir. Sab\u0131rl\u0131d\u0131r. \u00d6nce kelimeler bozulur; \u201cdo\u011fru\u201d e\u011filir, \u201cyanl\u0131\u015f\u201d makyajlan\u0131r. Sonra bak\u0131\u015flar de\u011fi\u015fir; g\u00f6zler ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rmez, g\u00f6rmek istemez. Ve en sonunda insan, kendine yabanc\u0131la\u015f\u0131r. Aynaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc y\u00fcz, bir zamanlar olmak istemedi\u011fi her \u015feydir.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck yan\u0131lg\u0131s\u0131, kendini d\u0131\u015far\u0131da sanmas\u0131d\u0131r. Oysa \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcme, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da de\u011fil, tam ortada ba\u015flar. Bir susu\u015fta. Bir kabulleni\u015fte. Bir \u201cbana dokunmayan y\u0131lan bin ya\u015fas\u0131n\u201d deyi\u015finde. \u0130\u015fte o an, i\u00e7imizde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir par\u00e7a kopar. Ve fark etmeden eksiliriz.<\/p>\n
Ama yine de\u2026 her \u015fey bu kadar karanl\u0131k m\u0131?<\/p>\n
Belki de as\u0131l mesele, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmemek de\u011fil; \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc fark edebilmektir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc fark eden insan h\u00e2l\u00e2 diridir. H\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u0131zlar. H\u00e2l\u00e2 utan\u0131r. Ve utanabilen bir kalp, hen\u00fcz tamamen kaybolmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Bir toplum \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcyebilir. De\u011ferler a\u015f\u0131nabilir. Hakikat, kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcnde bo\u011fulabilir. Ama yine de bir yerde, bir insan sessizce do\u011fruyu savunuyorsa\u2026 i\u015fte orada h\u00e2l\u00e2 umut vard\u0131r. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, k\u0131r\u0131lgan ama inat\u00e7\u0131 bir umut.<\/p>\n
Belki sa\u011flam kalamayaca\u011f\u0131z, dedi\u011fi gibi Nesin\u2019in. Belki bu \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmenin i\u00e7inde biz de \u00e7izilece\u011fiz, k\u0131r\u0131laca\u011f\u0131z, yorulaca\u011f\u0131z. Ama tamamen yok olmak ba\u015fka bir \u015feydir. Teslim olmak ba\u015fka.<\/p>\n
Ve insan, en \u00e7ok da burada s\u0131nan\u0131r: Kirlenmi\u015f bir d\u00fcnyada, i\u00e7indeki temizli\u011fi ne kadar koruyabildi\u011fiyle.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bazen b\u00fct\u00fcn mesele \u015fudur \u2014
\nHer \u015fey \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcrken, sen ne kadar insan kalabildin?<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Was wir als Verfall bezeichnen, kommt nicht pl\u00f6tzlich eines Morgens \u00fcber uns. Er ist still. Er ist geduldig. Die ersten Worte werden verdorben; \u201crichtig\u201d wird verbogen, \u201cfalsch\u201d wird erfunden.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":51,"featured_media":285130,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[286],"tags":[289],"class_list":{"0":"post-285129","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-yazarlar","8":"tag-manset"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/285129","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/51"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=285129"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/285129\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":285131,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/285129\/revisions\/285131"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/285130"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=285129"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=285129"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/halkweb.com.tr\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=285129"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}